What's next?

So I'm beginning to think that knowing where you'll be next month or even next week is overrated! Nothing new to report other then there is NOTHING to report. We tried to find out what the baby is two weeks ago and of course the baby was in the wrong position and then literally crossed it's legs and even covered it's self with it's hands! I nearly cried, I just wanted to have that little bit of knowledge but if my patience is what's on test then I might as well be completely tested, right? Life is definitely tough right now but it is not in my spirit to give in to discouragement. I can't say that I don't have my moments of feeling some despair and I do toss and turn most nights do to my darn brain not being able to turn off. But when it comes down to it I know that we have done and are doing all that we can. I know that even if I don't know how it will all go that there is a plan for us and that having an eternal perspective is what is caring me through. How blessed am I to have a wonderful husband, 5 awesome kids and one stubborn healthy baby coming! Even though our situation is tough and not at all what we had anticipated we will come through it with flying colors. Can't wait to look back on all this and reflect. So how am I? Depends on when you call!

Fall is coming!

Fall has always been my favorite time of the year. I love all the colors, weather and activities that come along with it. This year it has been hard to get excited about summer ending when so much in my life is up in the air. Jason does have some exciting leads that are coming up but I have learned my lesson on getting too excited until the job has been offered. So my lesson for the past few months,ok my whole life, is to put all my trust and faith into my HF and keep pushing forward. I can't explain how many times my life gets hard and I can't see how it's all going to work out but he always comes through for me, even though sometimes it's not the way I hoped, but I always come out the other side and can see, mostly always, why I had to take that path to bring me to the one I'm on now. Anyway I'll be starting school with the kids in the next few weeks and feel really good about this year, yup it's going to be crazy and unpredictable, but I am constantly reminded why I'm suppose to be doing it. And with this swine flu epidemic probably coming what safer,healthier,place for them to be. If you aren't panicking yet about this I 'll allow you the comfort of not knowing all the details yet, I will be posting about it next week so you have a week left to be carefree=)

Quick update

We leave to Idaho early Tuesday morning. Jason has an interview on Wednesday. We have about five houses to look at and Jason is turning in his Idaho paper work so he can get licensed there(just in case). We've been kind of packing and organizing so if the interview goes well( all fingers crossed please) we will be on our way. It all still seems unreal but yet i can't imagine that we aren't moving. It seems strange that we seem to be arranging everything and talking like we're going yet we have no job offer at this point. I think that possibly not having any other options at this point have us pretty scared so we have no choice but to think positively and have faith that somehow this will work out. So for now any prayers our way would be really appreciated. Either way I'm going to need Heavenly intervention.

Idaho?

Well I'm sure most of you already know about our job situation, or lack of one. Well last week Jason received a call from the surgical internship that he applied to in Boise, ID. Long story short they told him to expect an interview in Sept. and pretty much they really like him. That was really exciting news because it is exactly want he has always wanted to do, it's why he wanted to be a nurse. The only problem is the internship doesn't start until January, remember I'm due the beginning of February. Ok so while we were discussing all the possibilities after the call we got another call from a job in Boise wanting him to come in for an interview. We are waiting to hear if it will be the end of this week or next but we were blown away at the timing. We also had some people in our church call us and they want to rent our house for at least two years. They are able to move in Sept.1. We really would love to hear that we got a job soon and move but unfortunately some things have come together quickly while other important details, like an actual job, have not. Of course I'm in no way ready to move. The thought of packing up again just makes me want to go and hide. This was the first time we had truly unpacked because we planned on staying put for a long while, not less than 2yrs. I guess I have to just face reality that I am not meant to stay somewhere for longer than 2yrs. So we are just waiting on a phone call right now. Maybe it will come tomorrow. As much as I don't want to leave my family again I just want to have my husband rewarded for all his hard work. After all 7 hrs isn't to faraway.

Hawaii Trip!

So I finally got my pics! We were terrible at remembering to take pics. So I even borrowed some of Breanna's! We had a great time and I mostly felt good except in the evenings. We were able to do everything we wanted to Snorkeling probably was the best. Jason even swam with a sea turtle! The Polynesian Center was so worth the money! We even sat through a time share presentation and got $100 plus a $50 gift card to Duke's Restaurant! we enjoyed more than a few Hawaiian Shaved ices and we even got a coconut and drank from it! I have to thank my Mom for staying and taking care of my kids, rearranging my house and just being awesome! There is no way I would've made it without the knowledge that my kids were being so well cared for. Speaking of the kids they did great even Addalyn. Although I will never leave another baby in diapers, it's too hard not being able to talk to them and plus she cried and wouldn't go to me for a while. I am still trying to make it up to her! Well Hawaii truly was a dream and I am so glad we were able to go and have those memories to go back to.

Baby #6

I am trying to find my camera so I can post all my Hawaii pics and post about how much fun we had but I'll save that one and talk about how I am going to be the mom of 6 kids!!! Some how 6 just seems like a giant leap from 5, 5 was quite a leap from 4 by the way also! Re4ally it has nothing to do with it being harder it just seems crazy when I tell people this will be my sixth time doing it. We were very surprised by the timing of this latest addition we were planning to start trying after we got back from Hawaii but like most things in my life right now things didn't go as planned! I nearly fell over when I was greeted by those two very red lines on June 7. Oh well what are you going to do! I prayed really really hard that I could not be sick for our trip and I was really blessed. I felt pretty good everyday and only had to take it easy in the evening. Anyone who has been around me during any of my previous pregnancies knows that just the fact that I was out of bed was a miracle in its self.
So I will be getting another February baby(Harrison is the 4th) I will have my first appointment next week, although I've been on prescription meds for morning sickness for weeks now! As long as I hear ONE strong heart beat I will be happy. It feels good to know that my family is almost complete. The kids are all hoping for a boy so that our patttern holds true, but I really will be happy know matter what.

Ya, it's been a month

Ok so I missed posting about Payten's 10th bday and Jason's graduation, Avaries transplant party and Father's Day. I just have spent so much time doing other stuff that it all just got away from me. I promise to post pics from all the events later but for now I just wanted to at least post and say I am here still and still want to blog but I have felt so buried and have felt like I have been carry the weight of the world on my shoulders lately. Hopefully all of you have been following Avarie's blog so you are all aware of her situation. Jason graduated and although that was a wonderful occasion it has been very difficult for new grads to get hired ANYWHERE. We are pretty sure we are going to have to move to some random location. The problem is with the recession so many retired (experienced) nurses have come back to the work force snagging all the jobs with them. And the hospitals have cut a lot of their new grad training programs so that leaves us with some RN jobs but none for new grads. I am not sure of where this will take us it's pretty much the situation we found our self in when he was applying for schools and we got in to NC. I had NO IDEA that we would find our selves in this similar of a situation again but apparently the Lord has certain places in mind for my family and this is how we get to those locations. So again my faith is in his hands and all I ask for is Safety and Security for my whole family. In the mean time we leave to Hawaii in two days and will try to put some of these earthly concerns aside while we enjoy some relaxing in the tropical sun.